ive done it

i broke up with her


ive never felt so shit
i feel like im covered in something
but i showered and it didnt work.


fuck life

i love the feel of your skin after its been sunburnt

the feeling of slightly tanned skin feels nice.

ive really missed summer this year

i forgot how much i love, especially being on hols during it.

i started stretching my ears again..

i forgot how much it hurt....

why do i even bother sometimes, if shes not going to try

you know what the worst part is?

she can sleep even after what shes done to me

relationships are hard

Have you ever tried to put two worlds together?

have you ever tried to introduce your girlfriend to your friends?


and how when you do so, you find out one of your worlds is completely disgusting.

and how embarrassed you are of what you call friends


its a real slap in the face.

how i love feeling depressed about my life!


I feel i couldnt not even talk to her about it.

i need someone with more empathy sometimes, instead of getting angry at me.

i yearn for a quiet life sometimes, maybe i should move to the country when im older,


take me to place where i dont anyone, and leave me alone for now...

i really need to talk somebody.

i think i might ring jess later, i feel shes the only one that will listen

life is hard, relationships are harder.




for some reason i still feel like i have my shell on at school.

i was lurking on myspace today

and decided to check an old friends myspace.


looking through her pictures reading her profile etc...

i hate how our friendship ended
i hate how i treated her

she was legit one of the nicest people ive ever met,
and being the kid i was, being the boy i was.

i used her
i can finally admit my mistake of that

i am bad person sometimes
and this certain incident has been the worst

i miss talking to her,


she is one the most beautiful girls ive ever laid eyes on
i dont know what the fuck was wrong with me then

im glad shes happy now

I dont know what the fuck is going on sometimes.

David Carradine hung himself.....


WTF?!

bill from kill bill, killed himself...

this is a sad day for me

ive decided

that emotional metalcore

is my favourite music genre

i have an amazing secret at the moment


its funny

Its 5.52am

its monday and also the day i go back to school

i cant sleep because these essays are bothering me

hahaha dont get me wrong ive finished both

and yet i still feel.... uncompleted

so as i sit here and proof read over and over and over and over and over again

i think to myself

WHAT A WASTE OF 3 WEEKS!


i did nothing but school work....



well today's the day!

ive done some pretty spontaneous things lately

i got drunk with gordon at like 10pm and ripped out some dudes mailbox whom we dislike.

i decided to catch a train to bondi to go to melissahs and skyes house yesterday and ended up staying there for a couple of hours just talking to skye, skyes brother and melissah about the most random shit.

i just got into a car with emma at 11pm to take photos down at wonny, and then we went for a drive and caught up with recent events etc.


these are the friends i need at the moment
ones that wanted to do different things instead of going to the pub... every friday
and leaving me while they go to some shitty club.


ANYWAYZ kbye

Secret of mana on snes

She put me in her top friends today

Even bad men love their mothers,

So inclined to step back for a minute and realise our importance as souls wandering the earth looking for other souls to complain about finding other souls.


are we so isolated from our fellow companions that we are comfortable to start a morning conversation with a story about how much we hate something.

Or even the fact that we drift from those we really care about because we never got the attention we needed from them.
but then one day you feel a familiar hand grab your shoulder and turn you around to reveal their tear drenched face with the phrase "help me".

and that moment was the moment you held out for so long and now we feel a higher presence is mocking us and yet we feel a sense of importance because s/he comes to us. comes to you.

is that all we really want from our fellow wanderer? a sense of importance?

i guess thats where soul mates came from
the idea that two people care enough about one another that they fill the quota for importance for one another.